I don’t Need to be Fixed – I’m Just Autistic


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aspergers feelings

Asperger’s is now called High Functioning Autism

I know it’s Autism Awareness Month, but I don’t think awareness is enough.

Ignorance is the worst thing that ever happened to autism. I am not using the term “ignorance” in a derogatory way, but in its truest definition – lack of knowledge or education – about autism.

I find that even with this “Autism Awareness Month” the vast majority of the population is still ignorant of autism.

And really, that is understandable. It is hard to understand something that you haven’t lived – at least in terms of autism. How do you relate to someone who has such severe sensory processing disorder that a bright glare, a noise, or an odor can send them into a tailspin? You can’t, not really – unless you’ve experienced it yourself. Sure, you can empathize, but you can’t really understand just what it does when those lights are too bright or the noise is too loud or the odor is too strong.

Autism is a way of being – a different way of being. It’s a different brain, different neurological wiring.

Since when was being different a bad thing?

The way I see it, we are just another color in the box.

Why should I be made to feel like I have to change the very essence of who I am just so I will fit into society? Why is it OK For people to tell me that  should I change who I am to make them more comfortable? Why should I be made to feel like I don’t belong anywhere unless I am fixed or healed first?

And I couldn’t change anyway, no matter how hard I tried. And I have. I tried. I spent years hating myself because I was an outcast. I was different. I didn’t belong. But my brain will always be my brain – my autistic brain.

That’s right, I am autistic.

I am also tall, have blue eyes, and like to read. If those things are OK, then why is it not OK for me to have a brain that is wired differently from most people?

I am sorry if my autism makes you uncomfortable – sorry for you.

Instead of looking at the things that are different about me, the things you think are wrong, negative, or that make you uncomfortable (or even offend you), why not try looking at the good things about me?

Why not look for those positives and celebrate autism?

Yeah, we may not understand each other sometimes and I may say or do things that you think are odd, but why not try stepping outside of your comfort zone and looking at it from another perspective?

See, the people who accept me the best, accept my “autistic self” with all its social awkwardness and SPD and even meltdowns, are the ones who stopped framing me by their own point of reference. They put aside their preconceived notions about what a person is supposed to be, how they are supposed to act, and they said, “OK, she’s different, so what?”

They tossed out their rigid ideas of what it means to be normal. They took themselves, their own ideas, beliefs, and opinions, out of the equation. They stopped thinking in terms of that self centered perspective that, well, most people do. I think they call that human nature.

But even human nature can be altered or set aside for important things.

They accepted my reality and they accepted my version of normal. Yeah, there’s been a learning curve (and a lot of frustration on both sides), but I leave the floor wide open for questions – and I answer a lot of them.

I see it like this. We’re all in this autism acceptance thing together. Yes, there is some effort required on your part to seek out understanding, or the information you need to initiate understanding. But how can I expect you to take those steps if I’m not willing to meed you halfway? How can I expect you to do all the work if I am not willing to answer your questions and provide explanations – to help you understand? I can’t. That wouldn’t be fair.

So I do answer questions. I try to help people understand. I try to help them get to a place of acceptance. We don’t have to be best friends. In fact, I am much more comfortable spending the greater portion of my time alone. However, we do have to exist in this world together and I really thing that if you gave it a chance you would see that autism offers some beautiful, wonderful gifts.

I have said it before and I’ll say it again. God puts blessings in some of the most unexpected places – and one of those places is autism.

So please, I don’t need to be fixed or cured because I am not broken or sick – and I don’t want that anyway. I am not defective just because I am not like you. I am different because God wanted to give us a big, bright, beautiful world that is full of a lot of different flavors. Autism is just one of the more exotic ones. 🙂

Time Perception Disorder


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Now Clock TPD
Time Perception Disorder.
I have it.

I am autistic and it is part of the package (many autistics experience this, so my neurologist says).

I have no concept of time. One minute feels the same as one hour. Intellectually, I know that time has passed, but I don’t know how much.
I don’t know what time feels like.

Time moves separate from me, there is no connection. I can look at the clock and see that an hour has gone by or five minutes or whatever, but it all feels the same. This makes it really hard when I have to go somewhere or when I have a deadline. I do keep a timer at my workstation at home so I can set it when I am in a time crunch or when time is important.

Otherwise, time just does not hold much significance to me. I work until I am finished. I take a break until I feel rested. I don’t set an alarm to wake in the morning although I sometimes ask my husband to wake me when he gets up. Usually I just wake on my own without any help. I am definitely not a clock watcher.

Some people spend their entire lives trying to get out from under the clock. I have never been there. I never needed that escape.

My own research indicates that this “time perception disorder,” if you will (I don’t know what else to call it), tends to accompany certain conditions such as neurological disorders, autism, epilepsy, traumatic brain injury, Parkinson’s, and mental health issues like depression and bi polar disorder. Also, it seems that some people experience this intermittently while others have it all the time.

I fall into the latter group and I’ve had it my entire life. I have no perception of time.

It seems to go hand in hand with temporal issues and cognitive function that has gone a little haywire. I do have some cognitive issues; verbal processing is a biggie for me.

Also, all my memories are the same in feeling and experience – like an old photograph. Apparently, this is unusual as well. People say they have “vivid memories, like it was yesterday.” I don’t. All my memories look and feel the same – agewise. A memory from something that just now happened feels the same as a memory from something in my childhood.

Death and hurtful events don’t upset me like they do most people. When I experience them they almost instantly become familiar – like I have experienced them long ago. I am almost accustomed to them so they don’t throw me off like they do many people. That is because time is not relevant to me – it simply is not there.

There isn’t much out there, much information on this. In fact, some people think it isn’t even real. This causes problems because people who don’t have the condition just expect me to be able to process time like a “normal” person – they don’t understand the struggle I have with it. When I don’t perform as the expect me to, in regard to my time perception, they get very upset. Most are not aware that this is a very real condition. Some would say time perception disorder is debilitating, but the debilitating part is in the fact that people who don’t experience it don’t understand, don’t try to understand, and don’t believe it is real.

So is it real? You bet it is! I am living proof. However, if you know someone who experiences this – and they do not have a neurological or psychiatric condition – you may want to have them get checked out since it does not seem to travel alone.

I am not a doctor, but I do have the condition. Yes, it’s a real thing – very, very real.

Scriptural Proof that Jesus is God


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Jesus God in Flesh

Many people believe that God is actually three persons: the father, the son, and the Holy Ghost. It is a common belief. Unfortunately, it is not rooted in scripture. In fact, scripture says just the opposite.

The Bible very clearly says and shows that Jesus is God.

One of the first things that people will say when presented with this Biblical truth is to present Matthew 28:19 “Go ye therefore, and teach all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Ghost.”

Notice that the says the NAME – singular, one name.

Jesus is the name. Father, Son and Holy Spirit are offices or modes of operation.
I am a mother, a daughter and a writer – but my name is still Stephanie in each of those offices. There is only ONE of me (and I am sure people everywhere are grateful of that!), I am not three persons or three separate entities.

It is also worthwhile to note here that God is not a name. Some say God the father, God the son, God the Holy Ghost, but God is an office. That is like saying President the father, President the son, President the Holy Ghost. It doesn’t make sense. It has to be the name and there is only ONE name – Jesus.

Genesis 1:26 is another popular verse that is often used to “prove” that there are three, but I explain that in “Let ‘Us’ make man in ‘Our’ image” – What?.

I have more than 55 verses that show Jesus is God.

This is all according to SCRIPTURE. If you doubt or don’t understand, you need to get into the Word and STUDY. You also need to pray for a revelation of truth. Only God can reveal this to you. All I can do is open the door and lay out the scripture for you to study.

There are not three gods. There is only ONE God.

Let’s start with John 1:1-14 which clearly says that the Word was God and the Word became FLESH and walked among us. That is Jesus. God came to this world as Jesus to save us.

Jesus is God manifest in flesh.

Another verse that is very clear is John 10:30 JESUS said, “I and my father are ONE.” And Jesus is not a liar. Even those crucifying Him realized that He was God in flesh.

Now let’s look at how it isn’t possible for there to be three instead of one.

If Jesus was the ‘son of God’ in the way that WE are sons and daughters, then the fact that the Holy Spirit overshadowed Mary and she conceived should make Him the Holy Spirit’s son. The logic doesn’t add up. There can’t be three.

In Acts 10 we read the story of Cornelius. That is a good one to read because is also serves as an example of what we need to do to be saved (baptism in Holy Ghost evidenced by speaking in tongues and water baptism in Jesus name). But that is not why I am directing you to this scripture now.

Read down to verse 25. When Peter came to Cornelius’ house he fell down and worshiped Peter. However, in  verse 26, Peter told him to stand because he was also just a man.
This was the right thing for Peter to do because in Exodus 20:3 GOD said that we are to have no other gods before Him. We are not to worship any other than God.

However, when Jesus walked the earth, people fell at His feet and worshiped Him all the time – and He never corrected them.

But we are only supposed to worship GOD, right?

So why did Jesus allow it? Was He in sin? No, He is God.

Now let’s look at some pretty powerful scripture.

Matthew 1:23 says that Jesus’ name, Immanuel, means “God with us.”

Isaiah 44:24 says that God alone created the world.
However, John 1:3 and Colossians 1:16 say that JESUS created EVERYTHING.
Hmmm…if they are two separate entities or “gods” then something isn’t lining up.

Isaiah 43:10-11 GOD said that before Him there was no god formed, nor after. He also said that besides HIM there is NO SAVIOR.
Who is our savior?
Revelation 1:17-18 and Revelation 2:8 say that Jesus is the first and the last.

Isaiah 44:6 says that GOD is our redeemer.
2 Peter 1:1 says that JESUS is our redeemer. Did something change when I wasn’t looking?
Oh, and in 2 Peter 1:1 it also refers to “our GOD AND SAVIOR JESUS CHRIST.”

In John 20:28 Thomas called Jesus “My Lord and My GOD.”
Was Thomas addled or confused? I don’t think so, otherwise Jesus would have corrected him or they would have left that part out of the Bible altogether.

Acts 20:28 says that GOD purchased us with His own blood. How is that possible? First, God is a spirit and spirits don’t have blood. BUT if that spirit comes to walk among us manifest in flesh (Jesus – go back to John 1:14) then it is quite easy for Him to shed blood for us.
And it was Jesus who shed His blood for us – but it was God.
Revelation 1:5-6 and Revelation 5:9-8 say that Jesus’ blood purchased us.

There are more but this is enough for now. I will gladly share more with anyone who truly wants to know and understand. In other words, if you are truly hungry and don’t just want to fight I will be more than happy to share all the information that I have on this Biblical truth.

Scripture for Studying out the Oneness of God

  • John 1:1-14
  • John 10:30
  • Acts 10
  • Matthew 1:23
  • Isaiah 44:24, John 1:3, Colossians 1:16
  • Isaiah 43:10-11, Revelation 1:17-18, Revelation 2:8
  • Isaiah 44:6, 2 Peter 1:1
  • John 20:28
  • Acts 20:28, Revelation 1:5-6, Revelation 5:9-8

Mean Christians


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I have seen a trend recently on here where people are cutting folks off of their friends list because they don’t comment or interact. They say that in order to be their friend you have to comment and interact. And these are Christian people doing this.

Not all people comment, but many people read. You never know what ‘quiet’ person you are impacting.

I have learned this myself. I never remove people from my friends list unless they are a problem – and they it has to be a pretty big problem.

You have people watching you that you don’t even realize they are doing so. I have learned to be very careful; you may be the only Jesus they are exposed to.

But when presented with this, their hearts remain hard. They say they don’t want anyone watching them. I am sorry, but this is not Biblical. The Bible tells us that we are to be an EXAMPLE to others. When we made the decision to live for Christ we signed on to a pretty big and important job.

It is our job, our duty, to reach the lost. It is our JOB to lead others to Him, not shut them out because they don’t express themselves according to some set of parameters that we have in place. You cannot escape this job no matter where you go. You are either filled with the Holy Ghost and live a holy life (the best you can of course) ALL THE TIME or you don’t do it at all. God does not compromise!

I have seen people who are quiet (like me) contrasted by people who are ‘alive.’ That is not a fair comparison. People who are quiet are not dead. That is a very mean spirited assessment.

I have also seen Christians assume that quiet people do not pray or communicate. That again is not true and certainly not fair. I am a very quiet person but my relationships do not suffer. I pray daily – without ceasing. I have a strong, very good marriage – better than most. But being a quiet person I tend to think about things, take time to process them. I know I am not the only one.

But it isn’t all about me (although I do read a lot of peoples’ posts without commenting – I am autistic so I don’t always know what to say – but I do read). And like it or not people are watching you too. What kind of example are you setting? Some of the people I read, I would be afraid to walk through the door of their church. So many are judgmental and so hard. Where is the Christ like love that Jesus said we should have for one another?

Where is the operation of the body that draws people in – especially those no one else wants? And, yes, even the quiet ones?

What about the people who may not be in the same spiritual place as we are?

Do we reject them all? Do we shun them? That isn’t what my Bible says we should do.

I know in my own experience I have had people contact me who have been reading me for years – people I never knew – who have said that what I wrote had an impact on them.

I have even had several who have reached out to me after reading to ask questions, seeking a deeper relationship with God. I have done Bible studies online and on the phone. I have helped several find churches in their area, they have been baptized in Jesus name, received the Holy Ghost. It has been beautiful.

I am not saying this to be boastful, just to illustrate the importance of being very careful what you say and do and especially how you treat others.

But that is just me, how I operate. I understand that isn’t for everyone. It is my own personal conviction that when I made the decision to live for God that I would let Him shine through me – in fact I pray for that every day. It is my own personal conviction to reach others, to influence and plant seeds no matter what that looks like – even if it means putting things out there and no one responds.

I don’t need an ego boost. I don’t need people responding to everything I write. I don’t do it for my ego. I do it for God.

I guess I just see things a little differently. For me, living for God is full time and it isn’t done on my terms. I gave my life over to Him and I just do as He directs. I have seen enough people hurt by what I assume is unintentional rejection by their Christian brothers and sisters – I have even been there myself, hurt.

So many have what looks like lofty attitudes but really I believe that they have just forgotten that not everyone is at the same spiritual place that they are. They simply need to be reminded (at least I hope that is all it takes).

There are a lot of hurting people who need to feel accepted and if we don’t draw them in hell sure will.

The TRUTH about Once Saved Always Saved

There are some people, Christians, who believe that if you are “saved” at some point in your life then you are “saved” forever. I won’t go into the fact that their plan for salvation is usually inaccurate and that true salvation means that they must be baptized in Jesus name and filled with the Holy Ghost – I am just addressing the once saved always saved issue and why we need to repent daily.

Revelation 2:10-11 clearly says that we are to be faithful to God until death in order to make it into the Kingdom. So backsliders and those who are unrepentant are not going to make it – not if you are going by what the Bible tells us.

There are so many scriptures that tell us there are those who will not see the Kingdom – and there are no qualifiers that say, well, if you were baptized when you were 12 this doesn’t apply to you. No, it applies to everyone. Unrepented sin is unrepented sin, simple as that.

According to Romans 8:13, if you are living according to your flesh (your sinful nature) you will perish (go to hell) but if you are overcoming the sins of the flesh (repentance) you will live (inherit the Kingdom).

God promised that those who love Him will be heirs to His Kingdom (James 2:5). If you love Him, you will keep His commandments (John 14:15). So if you don’t keep His commandments (and not just the 10 – Jesus taught us a lot in the short time He walked this earth) then you don’t love him and if you do not love him then you don’t know God (1 John 4:8). If you don’t know God, then you can’t be one of His and be an heir to His kingdom.

Finally, on the subject of daily repentance, when Jesus gave the disciples what is referred to as the Lord’s Prayer, it was a template of how we are to pray. It provided all the elements that we are to address when we pray.

Now, when we understand that we are to pray daily – actually pray without ceasing (1 Thessalonians 5:17) – then that right there should tell us that we are to repent daily and regularly. Just as we should also be forgiving other and praising Him daily.

Holy Ghost Baptism and Speaking in Other Tongues

This topic tends to get people upset and very defensive. I have often been accused of “judging” when I tell people that if they haven’t spoken in other tongues then they have not received the baptism on the Holy Ghost and are not Holy Ghost filled.

So let me clear something up right now.

Only God can judge a person’s salvation.
I can only tell you what the Bible says.

I would suggest using the King James Version for study. That is the version that is closest to a literal translation of the original text. While there are a few errors, it is far more accurate than other versions like the NIV and others. The New American Standard is a close second to the KJV. Many of the other versions stray quite far from the original text and much of the truth in scripture is lost.

Jesus told Nicodemus in John 3:5 that we must be born of water and spirit. That means water baptism and baptism of the Holy Ghost (some people mistakenly believe that born of water means the fleshly birth, but that is inaccurate. If you read on you see that he talks of people being born of flesh – there is a difference).

Old Testament prophecy told of Holy Ghost baptism: Ezekiel 36:26-27 and Joel 2:28, among other scripture.

Jesus also prophesied about it in John 7:38-39.

As you read you will see that the baptism of the Holy Ghost occurs when a person has fully repented of their sins. It isn’t just an arbitrary event that is only for a few. It is for everyone who will receive it.

Many people ask if receiving the Holy Ghost is necessary for salvation. It is part of the New Birth Experience that Jesus taught to Nicodemus in John 3.

Also, Ephesians 1:13 says: In whom ye also trusted, after that ye heard the word of truth, the gospel of your salvation: in whom also after that ye believed, ye were sealed with that holy Spirit of promise,

Now, specifically discussing speaking in other tongues, it is the evidence of the infilling of the Holy Ghost. If you haven’t spoken in tongues, it means you have not received the Holy Ghost.

The way we know this is by reading several accounts in the Bible.

Acts 19:1-6 Paul encountered the disciples. He asked them if they had received the Holy Ghost and they told him they had never even heard of a Holy Ghost. When they received the Holy Ghost they spoke in other tongues.

Acts 10 is the story of Cornelius. He was very devout, but he had a vision and an angel told him that what he was doing was not enough. The angel instructed him to reach out to Peter. He did and Peter witnessed to him. In verse 46 we see where not only Cornelius, but his entire household received the Holy Ghost and spoke in other tongues. That was how Peter knew they had received the Holy Ghost and he baptized them in Jesus name immediately.

I should also note that this is not the same type of speaking in other tongues that is one of the gifts of the Spirit (1 Corinthians 14). It is also not the type of speaking in tongues that is praying in the Spirit (speaking a Heavenly language). While both of those are indeed speaking in other tongues, this type is specifically intended to provide evidence of the infilling of the Holy Ghost.

I hope this helps further explain Holy Ghost baptism.

Why the Romans Road to Salvation won’t get you to Heaven

Many people believe that Romans 10:9 provides the instructions for salvation but that simply is not true.

The short answer is it isn’t Biblical. It is taken out of context.
The book of Romans is not addressing unsaved people, but an established church where the people were already saved. They did not need to know HOW to be saved. They were being taught how faith and grace work.

The people in that church that the book of Romans is addressing had already repented of their sins, been baptized in the NAME OF JESUS (the ONLY NAME of the father, son, and Holy Ghost), and they had received the Holy Ghost as evidenced by speaking in other tongues.

They had already been ‘saved’ according to the church that Jesus established in Acts, according to the apostles doctrine.

The instruction in Acts 2:38 for salvation was given to the unsaved in response to their question, “What shall we do?” (after they realized just how sinful they were).

So before you jump into Romans, back up to the foundation of the church that Jesus built and read the book of Acts. You will see it demonstrated over and over again, people repenting, being baptized in the NAME of JESUS and receiving the Holy Ghost – and speaking in other tongues.

There is a reason that those examples are there – and there are a lot of them – it is because that is the only way to be saved.

If salvation is an engine, then Acts 2:38 is the key.
Romans is just the instruction manual that explains how it works.

There is only ONE WAY to be saved.
Repent of your sins (but don’t stop there)
Be baptized in JESUS name (no other name, no titles, only Jesus)
You will receive the Holy Ghost as evidenced by speaking in other tongues. You may receive it before baptism in Jesus name, or after, but it must happen because it is evidence that you have fully repented.

Baptism on the Holy Ghost with the evidence of speaking in other tongues is YOUR assurance that your name is written in the Book of Life. 
There is NOTHING like it.
But if you have not spoken in other tongues then you have not received the Holy Ghost. In the Bible that is the ONLY evidence that is given. People may act different, but that doesn’t mean they are filled with the Holy Ghost. The only way to know is to speak in other tongues – because that is what the BIBLE tells us.

So if you have not repented, repent today.
If you have not been baptized in the name of Jesus, I can help you find a pastor in your area who can do it.

If you have not been filled with the Holy Spirit (evidenced by speaking in other tongues) start seeking after it today. If you contact me I will gladly pray for you. If you have questions I will gladly answer.

In the end, it doesn’t matter what your grandma said, or your father, or even your pastor. We will all be judged by what it written in the BOOK. If our lives don’t line up with scripture God said He will turn us away.

Study for yourself and don’t rely on the word of man. The book of Acts is crystal clear and tells us exactly what we are to do to be saved. There is no other way and when you are standing before Him in judgment, there are no second chances.

Did God Create Asperger’s?


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by Stuart Miles at freedigitalphotos.net

Graphic by Stuart Miles at freedigitalphotos.net

I recently saw a question posed to the members of a forum for Christian Aspies. The person asked if God created Asperger’s or if we are some type of corruption from the “norm.”

I have heard many people ask variations of this question over the years and it is a great one. However, I don’t believe that the answer is so black and white.

The question itself implies that what is considered by society to be “normal” is actually God’s normal. I personally do not believe that it is. I don’t believe that God ever intended for society’s accepted normal to be what was normal for man.

See, when sin was brought into the picture it began to corrupt every cell of every human that existed and that followed. God’s intended normal was present in Adam and Eve prior to the fall. After that, it was a steady decline. What we are now are corrupted versions of what God originally intended so that even society’s “normal” isn’t even normal.

I will go even further to say that many forms of Asperger’s such as the honesty, adherence to rules, conviction when a rule is broken (sin), and even sensory processing issues.

In the garden man was not exposed to the overwhelming sensory input. In fact, man began in an agrarian society where people farmed, planted crops and lived off of the land. Life was perfect.

When sin entered the scene man began to degrade. NO ONE is normal, at least by God’s originally intended normal, any more.

So, did God create Asperger’s? I believe that He created ME. He created Aspies. He created all of us, but the corruption of sin is NOT His doing. And there are many, many shades of that corruption. In that respect, Aspies and “normal” people are on the same spectrum.

Take your disability and go away!


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rejects - Stuart Miles

The more I am around people who are not handicapped, the more I realize that there is no place for me in the ‘normal’ world. I have never belonged and I never will. I want others who are handicapped, no matter what that looks like, to know, yes, I know how it feels to be an outcast.

I know how it feels for people to treat your handicap like it is an inconvenience to THEM. I know how it feels to have someone mistreat you because you have a handicap. I know what it feels like to have someone intentionally do things that target your handicap and cause pain or discomfort.

I know what it feels like to have people make certain you know that because you are handicap you are a second class citizen and have no right to ask for any accommodation or help.

I know how it feels to have someone make you feel like you should not be around or even alive because you have a disability. Like you should be put in a box somewhere so no one can be bothered with you.

Yeah, I know how that feels.

Sure, part of it is just plain ignorance; they don’t understand the issues that come from disabilities. But a lot of it comes from being selfish and self-centered. They don’t care about other people and are insensitive to the needs of others. All they care about is what they want when they want it. No one else matters to them.

This is the antithesis of a Christian attitude. Many so-called ‘christians’ will help people – until it infringes upon their own comfort or desire. Then it is game over. The evil comes out and the devil gets glorified. The hate I have observed and experienced in my life by ‘christians’ in response to disabled people is horrifying.

So, no, real Christians follow Christ’s teaching and reach out to help others. They operate in love and bear good fruit.

But these others bear nasty, rotten fruit and they are so bound up they don’t even know it.

They never stop to think beyond their own small, self-centered world to realize that handicapped people go through those ‘inconveniences’ every single day. In their world it is all about them and no one else matters.

Every day I make accommodations for the ‘normal’ world. Yet when I ask for one simple accommodation I am labeled ‘inconsiderate.’ I am inconsiderate because I try to avoid severe pain and discomfort.

So, let’s talk about that.

Let’s talk about the inconsiderate person in a wheelchair who is slowing you down.

Let’s talk about the inconsiderate blind person who bumped you with their cane or dared bring their service dog into the restaurant where you are eating.

Let’s talk about the inconsiderate deaf person because, well, if you don’t know sign language you have to write notes in order to be understood.

How about the inconsiderate autistic person with sensory processing disorder who cannot tolerate bright lights or glare or loud noise or strong odors because it sends shooting, electrical shock like pain through their entire body?

But, hey, as long as YOU are comfortable, right?



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I am sick to death of the discrimination and hate against other races and people.

White people against black, everyone against Hispanic, calling them all ‘Mexicans’ (really?), the slurs against Asians and Middle Easterners – it is just sickening.

It seems that people are LOOKING for the differences to justify hate and fear (fear really is that basis for hate). They create this divide when really there is no difference.

But the biggest issue I have (since our sorry society is actually taking baby steps to move in the direction of ending racial and ethnic prejudice) is the discrimination I experience on a regular basis because of my (world defined) ‘disability.’

Autism is just another way of being, like having brown skin or white skin, blue eyes or brown ones, like being tall or short. It is a different wiring of the brain.

Autism is NOT a disease, a defect, a punishment (thanks a mil Toni Braxton for telling the world that your autistic child was a punishment – nice), something to be cured. Yes, some of us are less functional than others – ON THE OUTSIDE – but you really don’t know what is going on INSIDE.

Just because we make YOU uncomfortable doesn’t mean that we should be ‘cured’ or put away. Your discomfort does not invalidate our right to be held as valuable individuals. Some of the greatest minds in history were autistic – Einstein, Mozart, Temple Grandin, Bill Gates, and a whole host of highly creative, intelligent, scientific people. The list is incredible.

I have been discriminated against severely because of my ‘disability.’ I have been ridiculed, abused, rejected and been made an outcast because I am different. Most of the time that discrimination comes for sheer ignorance. People don’t understand and they don’t want to because if they take the time to learn then they can no longer justify their poor treatment of others. Yes, I am socially awkward. Yes, I say things sometimes that offend. That is not my intention but I just speak the truth and am not as equipped as my neutotypical counterparts to handle some aspects interpersonal communication.

I offended someone recently and they have become quite nasty towards me – trouble is I sometimes have to work with this person. This is just another example of someone preferring to remain in their ignorance and their maintaining a thin skin as opposed to taking the intelligent route and educating themselves and moving toward understanding. But their misplaced arrogance is their problem, not mine. Their choice to hate and discriminate instead of trying to become educated and better understand is their problem. And in all honesty, that typically indicates a lack of intelligence as well as a lack of character – something to think about.

There is a billboard about a mile from my home that promotes finding a ‘cure’ for autism – as if it is a disease. So speaking for the autistic community, I say this.

We don’t need to be cured; We need to be accepted.

Stop looking for our faults and differences because if that is all you want to see, that is all you will see – and you won’t have to look too hard. Then again, if all we wanted to see was YOUR faults and differences we wouldn’t have to look too hard either.

This is the way we were born. We did not choose our differently wired brain any more than you chose your height, skin color or eye color.

I was born this way and I wouldn’t change it for the world! Because of my autism I am intelligent, I see and experience the world in a different way. You know, if you stopped judging me and criticizing me, opened your heart and mind to actually get to know me you might even like me.

There is NOTHING in the Bible that says any race or ethnicity is an abomination or deserves to be abused. There is not one scripture that says people who are ‘disabled’ are less than human or are not able to serve God. Not a one.

Please, PLEASE stop seeing the differences and start seeing the contributions. They are there if you will just open your eyes. We are all here on this earth together, put here to serve the Lord, it is high time we come together and work in unity to do just that.


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