Autism spectrum, bully, Bullying, Christian Aspie, Christian attitude, Contemporary worship music, Desperation Band, discrimination, Hillsong Music Australia, Israel Houghton, living for God, praise, prayer, relationship with Jesus, social issues
This morning I was feeling very good, happy. But I do most mornings. Even on stimmy days I try to pray and praise myself into a better mood. At the very least I try to smile.
A co-worker commented on my attitude today. She said I am always happy. They are always asking why I am so happy especially with all the difficult things going on in the office. Everyone is always so stressed and upset, but they say I am never stressed or upset.
From that, they conclude that that is because I don’t have it as hard as they do.
I smile. I have it worse.
See, not only am I dealing with the issues in the office, I have been told by a key figure that I am bad. I still work just as hard, though. I am also nice to the person when I see her.
However, add to that situation the fact that I have a cognitive disability that makes it very difficult to “read” people, to understand them, to grasp their moods, expressions, meanings behind words. I can’t tell if they are being nice to me because they like me or if they really don’t like me but tolerate me. I can’t tell if they wish I would go away or if they don’t mind (or even like) me being around.
I don’t even know if I am wanted there and they all might as well speak another language.
I suspect, based on what the “key person” said that they really don’t want me around.
But still I work (as if I am working for God) and do my best. I try to have a good, helpful attitude and I try to be cheerful.
My co-workers are very surprised to hear that I have struggles at work, the same as they have.
They ask me how I stay positive and how I keep from getting stressed and upset.
I told them that my focus is on Jesus, not on this job or the people here. I know that no matter what happens, God and only God is in control of my future, my destiny, my life. These people can’t touch me. Even if I lost my job tomorrow I know that God will take care of me.
I turn on my praise music when I leave the house in the morning and keep it on throughout my entire hour long commute. Then I play it in my office much of the day. It keeps me positive. It keeps me happy.
It keeps my focus where it belongs.
My praise song playlist:
- “Get Ready for Revival” Bethany Church
- “Freedom” Eddie James
- “Great God” Free Chapel
- “This is how we Overcome” Hillsong
- “Friend of God” Don’t know the artist
- “Favor of the Lord” Israel & New Breed (lots of repetition here and I repeat it out loud
- Nothing can stop the favor of the Lord – unstoppable” Try it, it
- really works)
- “God is Great” Hillsong
- “Trading my Sorrows” Israel & New Breed
- “My Life is in You Lord” Don’t know the artist
- “Everyone (Praises) Desperation Band
- “Counting on God” New Life Worship (one of my favorites!)
- “Born Again” Newsboys
I also made this. Try it. Let me know what you think.
So, where is your focus today?